Quién sabe porqué estoy escribiendo, si todo dejó de tener sentido.
Trabajo, casa, novio, familia, fiesta ya no, amigos ya no, me voy alejando de todo.
Es culpa mía pero se que lo causa una sola persona y no soy tan fuerte para alejarme. Qué tontería, si realmente quisiera ya me hubiera ido algo lejos, o regresado a mi centro. Cada vez me alejo más.
La incertidumbre es la siguiente: si me alejo de él, me acerco a mí? O todo volverá a ser una espiral ciega?
Tantas dudas para una persona tan invisible como yo…
Once upon a time, there was this silly little girl.
She lived in a perfect world, surrounded by people devoted to her, who loved her and felt her love back.
Every detail in her life was perfectly adjusted, everything in place and time and order. Nothing out of place, no harm, no violence.
And then, one day, her world crumbled into a million pieces and she realized it was all a big fat lie.
Therefore, she felt empty, alone and really sad.
Today, she struggles to carry on, pretending everything its just the way it is supposed to be, while deep down her soul she dies every day and every time she forces fake smiles to everyone around her.
Today has been the saddest day of my life.
You wanna know the saddest part of it? There is no specific reason.
Specially: There are no reasons any more.
All I ever ask es from you, was support.
I guess it was just too much to ask for.
Last year, this time of the year, I truly didn’t think I could feel this love for anyone.
Not even for you.
Its not you, Its me.
– What a lie- you may think.
Not in this case: it’s me, I’m tired of being around you.
Its like when You fall in love, you’re supposed to feel in love, not like crap. Why do you make me feel like shit? No, why do I feel this way around you… When you ignore me… When you are not around?